Probably the most honest post

Hi, 

This  was ment to go up a week ago sorry,

I’ve been quite distant from my blog recently and haven’t uploaded a post in a week or so it’s not that I haven’t wanted to post but there has been a few things on my mind so I thought I would talk about it,

Ever since I was younger  I have always been quite the worrier but obviously everyone worries about things and its compleatly normal to. But A few years ago things I guess you could say got a lot worse than the usual things I would worry about. A couple years ago my mum and stepdad broke up (it wasn’t terrible and there still friends now) but when my mum and dad broke up I was very young so I don’t remember any of that so with me being older it obviously affected me a bit more. On top of this I had just started highschool which I had worried about even more and all this happening at once kind of acted like a bit of a trigger and started to make my worries grow a lot more and it went through fazes setteling down and comming up again  I don’t know any other way to say but I felt like it was taking over my life and didn’t go a day in a couple years or so without having worrying constantly an recently everything became a worse than usual, for example in school if somebody looked at me I would instaltly think they hated me or disliked me (sounds stupid I know) and I would then have to avoid that one person, or another example I saw someone in my family upset and they said they were fine to probably stop me from worring but this would make me worry even more and for some reason I just don’t realise in that moment everyone gets upset weather they are adults or not. And at the same time I delt with a few friendship group problems which caused stress but is sorted now.

It all is very hard to explain because probably from what I have told you It just sounds like someone who worries a lot but to individuals it hard to deal which the constant paranoia of things which will probably never happen.

Obviously everyone goes through something diffrent but I could give you one peice of advice I would be to tell someone. I just recently told my dad and then mum and grand perants an closest friends and also been to see someone outside of family and friends and now feel better that I have.

Thank you for reading 

I’m in no way shape or form trying to put my self in a catigory of some form such as mental health  as this is one of the reasons I didn’t want to upload this a week ago because I didn’t want people thinking I was trying to diagnose myself with something as mental health is something a lot of people go through and is a serious topic I’m just explaining my perspective/experience.

Thank you

Ella xx

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